lately i've lost a sense of nostalgia, i stopped looking back. looking into old memories have stopped stirring any feelings for me, and i realized that i feel empty. no past to look behind, no future to look ahead. all i have is present. but even present doesn't feel like something that i have. i feel lost so fucking lost. i cant focus on the problems surronding me, i simply ignore it like i'm some sort of machine. the truth is, i'm the most human being alive. i felt it fucking all. i felt misery, guilt, despair, happiness, ecstacy, sadness, rage. i felt it all and i looked into your miseries as well. if it hurts you so much why won't you do something to heal the wounds? it's because you are an soulless piece of shit monster who wants to drown in an image of itself, holding a mirror to their chest. i fucking hate you, i hate you so fucking much.